I want to talk about sleep. 

Let me get this straight.  I wanted to start at the beginning and talk all about Nelson, his birth and the two months that have passed since he was born, but that will never happen.  I just need to start writing. 

I know they say parents with a newborn are sleep deprived, but its never really talked about why.  I mean, newborns sleep 16-18 hours a day, so if you really try to sleep when they sleep you should be very well rested.  But here's the thing.  The "sleep when they sleep" mantra is just crap.  There are things you have to do: eat, shower, go to the bathroom, take a minute for yourself, pump, catch-up on emails, and many more.  Plus, there is the fact that your whole life you have been programmed to sleep at night so sleeping during the day is quite hard.  There are also things like noises and lights and doorbells, landlords, phones and neighbors. 

But here is the biggest thing, at least for Tuco and me.  He never sleeps!  He has got permanent bags under his eyes, he hates his crib, tolerates his bouncy chair and squirms the whole time he's in bed with us.  I'm starting a log today, but this is the third time I have tried, so don't expect too much.  He only sleeps for about 6 half-an-hour stretches during the day.  Which would be good if he would make that up at night, but he doesn't.  He likes to go to sleep around 2 am and wake up around 10.  That's with about 4 feeds during that 8 hour period. 

A sleep chart

He's asleep right now.  But he's starting to wake up.  On the dot too.  He went down at 12:20 and it's now 12:50. 

I've worried my pants off about this to no avail.  He'll sleep when he wants to.  I'll sleep in a year.  His baggy eyes will probably fade, mine may remain permanent.